Currently I’m the Israelite children ! Complaining and murmuring about a promise that God is leading me to but obvious I want to take it in control because it feels like it’s taking too long and it’s not going to get done in time ! I’m worried I’m anxious terrified even angry but it’s not my promise to begin with he keeps telling me to trust him but I feel like nothing is happening or moving. Just being real and honest sorry I vented on your post 🙃
This is a safe space, sis. Don’t apologize. When it’s hard to be Patience & to encourage my heart, God always reminds me take it moment by moment. Let Him figure out the how and the when, by moment to moment just *be* and look for Him and expect Him and it’s helped a lot to change my heart posture when it’s hard and the grumbling in heart is loud. Also, a prayer I’ve been loving to pray is “create in me a clean Heart O God” (Psalm 51:10). He will start the heart surgery and do it 🙏🏾❤️
Know that our God hear your cries but also know that He doesn't put anxiety, worry, fear and anger in us that's the devil trying to plant a seed in us don't let it be your reality 🙏🏽 trust in God timing and what he has for your life 💕
I say this when I know the devil is trying to attack my mind.. do you mind if I share it
Say this
I reject this lie of anxiety, fear, worry. Anger I'm using my authority. I don't like what's happening in my mind right now. I don't have to accept this. This is a weapon that will not prosper. This is not going to be my reality.
1. It’s testimony time: What is an “Egypt” that God has delivered you from?
My Egypt was a business with mentorship to some very “successful” people I spent four years building. I poured my time, energy, and even my identity into it, believing it was the path to success, community, and purpose. I idolized the dream it promised, the relationships I built, and the sense of belonging it gave me. But over time, God revealed that I was trapped in a false sense of security, chasing something that wasn’t real. The scales fell off my eyes when I saw how much I had built my life on a man-made system instead of trusting God as my true Provider. God, in His mercy, pulled me out, even allowing me to experience tough trials so I would come to depend on Him alone.
2. What does it practically look like for you to surrender to God’s purification and healing process when fond memories of your “Egypt” pop up?
When I find myself reminiscing about the people, the community, or the experiences, I have to take those thoughts captive (2 Corinthians 10:5) and remind myself of the truth—God didn’t remove me from it to deprive me, but to protect and purify me. Practically, this means:
• Praying & repenting whenever nostalgia tempts me to romanticize the past.
• Journaling gratitude for where God has me now, focusing on the freedom and truth He’s given me.
• Speaking Scripture over my mind, reminding myself that “forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead” is what God calls me to do (Philippians 3:13-14).
• Being intentional about fellowship with believers who encourage my faith, instead of longing for past relationships that were tied to deception.
3. How have you recognized when you’re craving the “meat of Egypt” over the manna God is providing now?
I recognize it when my heart starts questioning God’s provision—when I start thinking:
• “Maybe I should have stayed; I was so close to success.”
• “The people were great, maybe I overreacted.”
• “At least I had a system, a plan, and a clear path.”
These thoughts mirror the Israelites in the wilderness who complained, “We remember the fish we ate in Egypt at no cost—also the cucumbers, melons, leeks, onions, and garlic” (Numbers 11:5). They forgot that Egypt was bondage and that the “free food” came at the cost of their slavery.
When I find myself craving the “meat of Egypt”, I realign my heart by:
• Thanking God for the “manna” He’s giving me now—daily provision, true freedom, and a new calling.
• Focusing on faith over feelings—even if I miss certain aspects, I remind myself that obedience is better than comfort.
• Trusting that God’s plans are better—I may not see the full picture yet, but I refuse to trade my promised land for a past that God delivered me from.
WOW!!! This is me RIGHT NOW!!! The struggle is so incredibly real!! My mind keeps going to the relationship God has pulled me out of but my mind KEEPS reflecting on what I miss from that relationship. It's been soooo hard. I do my very best to remind myself of the reasons the relationship ended in the 1st place and if those things haven't changed I KNOW that I don't wanna look in my rear view mirror at all and keep pushing forward. The loneliness creeps in and that's when it gets challenging but I KNOW God has to have something better!!! I can honestly say Ill be happy when I can finally give the testimony of what God brought me too when it is finally revealed.
I crave numbing and distractions in particular old friends and marijuana. I am in the process of purification and tbh healing and facing my past hurts and traumas is hard. My mind sometimes fondly remembers the feeling of being high as well as just partying and drinking with old friends . I start to think about how it felt and how it would be nice to do that again. But I always try to take off the rose coloured glasses and see it for what it was, the anxiety, depression, low self esteem, self doubt and the passive way that I used to live life. I dont want that . I want to wake up everyday with new possibilities, knowing that I have an amazing future ahead, where I will be healed and whole because I went through this process. I ask God for strength when I get tempted and seek encouragement from my close community that God gave me for accountability. I have been 8 months sober and the temptation still comes but I just do my best to keep my eyes on Jesus and be honest with Him but also to accept the way out that He gives me when I am tempted ❤️
I love this Mel. It’s so funny because just this morning my mind began to wonder about a time I had no business thinking about! This was just the reminder that I needed!! What’s ahead is definitely far more greater than where we’ve been!! ❤️❤️❤️
I was recently leaded from Cincinnati to Virginia. Before I left Cincinnati I was battling myself because everyone and everything was there I had the perfect toxic unholy marriage the unhealthy relationship with my mother, siblings and friends who would want to leave a transgressional situation. But I was dying on the inside 2 years ago I was in such a bad place I remember in December of 2023 I was on my room and I heard the voice of our Lord say to me it's time. That night He intervene and pulled me back to his light so I picked up my bible something I had NEVER done before at the age of 44 😳 so I said okay God help me to understand what I'm reading because this was foreign to me God put people in my life to guide me to his words. I meant a woman name Sister Denise that lead me to my church but he didn't stop there I was lead to Pastor Priscilla Shire and Melody. Doing weekly bible studies on Mondays added to me breaking the many chains I had and didn't realize. Praise God Chayah
To sum it up I broke every chain ⛓️ now I break the chain of looking back to Egypt
When you said ‘Egypt had meat but it also had chains’😭l hollered so loud. It was so right on time because l’ve wrestled with something the Lord clearly showed me would not be good for me even thought it appeared like exactly what l was praying for. And that line reminded me l was romanticizing the Egypt instead of praising God for leading me out of it.
Wow What a message!!!! And an answer to one of my biggest questions!!!! My Egypt was my previous religion. It was a Pharisee type religion but the sincerity and zeal sometimes overshadowed the chains that are put on your personal faith. I enjoyed leadership and support in the religion but nothing replaces Holy Spirit and literally Gods perfect timing. Clarity my sister, from your brother.Thanks!
Hey Mel👋🏾 how are you? This is Donyea. I made a new Substack account. Our Father, God has delivered me from a stressful home and brought me into a place of peace. When memories or other ideas come up concerning love, I have to remember my First Love, Jesus. Also, who I am now in Christ. I am not allowed to obsess over or idolize anyone. Whew! Thank you for this question. It is a true healing process that is taking its time right now😩😭.
Clarification just in case some people misunderstand: while God didn’t make manna rain from Heaven on the Sabbath, He provided twice as much manna on Fridays so they can keep the Sabbath without having to collect it for food (since they had to collect enough for the day everyday and manna would usually spoil if they gather too much for the next day except on Fridays). God still provided for their daily needs, especially when it comes to keeping His commandments. (Reference: Exodus 16)
Yes completely correct, Thank you for clarifying that for anyone who may have been like 🧐🧐! I should’ve explained further or left a scriptural reference!
Enjoyed reading and right on time. Thanks
Thanks, sis!! so glad you enjoyed and it was timely. God is good!!
Definitely on time!
🙏♥️ Look at the Lord doing His thing!
Currently I’m the Israelite children ! Complaining and murmuring about a promise that God is leading me to but obvious I want to take it in control because it feels like it’s taking too long and it’s not going to get done in time ! I’m worried I’m anxious terrified even angry but it’s not my promise to begin with he keeps telling me to trust him but I feel like nothing is happening or moving. Just being real and honest sorry I vented on your post 🙃
This is a safe space, sis. Don’t apologize. When it’s hard to be Patience & to encourage my heart, God always reminds me take it moment by moment. Let Him figure out the how and the when, by moment to moment just *be* and look for Him and expect Him and it’s helped a lot to change my heart posture when it’s hard and the grumbling in heart is loud. Also, a prayer I’ve been loving to pray is “create in me a clean Heart O God” (Psalm 51:10). He will start the heart surgery and do it 🙏🏾❤️
Thank you
Sister Tylisha.
Know that our God hear your cries but also know that He doesn't put anxiety, worry, fear and anger in us that's the devil trying to plant a seed in us don't let it be your reality 🙏🏽 trust in God timing and what he has for your life 💕
I say this when I know the devil is trying to attack my mind.. do you mind if I share it
Say this
I reject this lie of anxiety, fear, worry. Anger I'm using my authority. I don't like what's happening in my mind right now. I don't have to accept this. This is a weapon that will not prosper. This is not going to be my reality.
I reject it in the name of Jesus 🙏🏽
Amen thank you
Exactly how I’m feeling right now. Whew.
1. It’s testimony time: What is an “Egypt” that God has delivered you from?
My Egypt was a business with mentorship to some very “successful” people I spent four years building. I poured my time, energy, and even my identity into it, believing it was the path to success, community, and purpose. I idolized the dream it promised, the relationships I built, and the sense of belonging it gave me. But over time, God revealed that I was trapped in a false sense of security, chasing something that wasn’t real. The scales fell off my eyes when I saw how much I had built my life on a man-made system instead of trusting God as my true Provider. God, in His mercy, pulled me out, even allowing me to experience tough trials so I would come to depend on Him alone.
2. What does it practically look like for you to surrender to God’s purification and healing process when fond memories of your “Egypt” pop up?
When I find myself reminiscing about the people, the community, or the experiences, I have to take those thoughts captive (2 Corinthians 10:5) and remind myself of the truth—God didn’t remove me from it to deprive me, but to protect and purify me. Practically, this means:
• Praying & repenting whenever nostalgia tempts me to romanticize the past.
• Journaling gratitude for where God has me now, focusing on the freedom and truth He’s given me.
• Speaking Scripture over my mind, reminding myself that “forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead” is what God calls me to do (Philippians 3:13-14).
• Being intentional about fellowship with believers who encourage my faith, instead of longing for past relationships that were tied to deception.
3. How have you recognized when you’re craving the “meat of Egypt” over the manna God is providing now?
I recognize it when my heart starts questioning God’s provision—when I start thinking:
• “Maybe I should have stayed; I was so close to success.”
• “The people were great, maybe I overreacted.”
• “At least I had a system, a plan, and a clear path.”
These thoughts mirror the Israelites in the wilderness who complained, “We remember the fish we ate in Egypt at no cost—also the cucumbers, melons, leeks, onions, and garlic” (Numbers 11:5). They forgot that Egypt was bondage and that the “free food” came at the cost of their slavery.
When I find myself craving the “meat of Egypt”, I realign my heart by:
• Thanking God for the “manna” He’s giving me now—daily provision, true freedom, and a new calling.
• Focusing on faith over feelings—even if I miss certain aspects, I remind myself that obedience is better than comfort.
• Trusting that God’s plans are better—I may not see the full picture yet, but I refuse to trade my promised land for a past that God delivered me from.
Bye what do we do when we miss Egypt and even cry while at it ?
Or have the thoughts of all the meat we had in Egypt. What do we do ?
I wish newsletters and devotional like these came with practical tips
Really enjoyed your post. I'm struck by how much it reminds me of my book "Exiting Egypt". You can check it out on Amazon, if you are interested.
Soooooo good sis!! So good!
WOW!!! This is me RIGHT NOW!!! The struggle is so incredibly real!! My mind keeps going to the relationship God has pulled me out of but my mind KEEPS reflecting on what I miss from that relationship. It's been soooo hard. I do my very best to remind myself of the reasons the relationship ended in the 1st place and if those things haven't changed I KNOW that I don't wanna look in my rear view mirror at all and keep pushing forward. The loneliness creeps in and that's when it gets challenging but I KNOW God has to have something better!!! I can honestly say Ill be happy when I can finally give the testimony of what God brought me too when it is finally revealed.
I crave numbing and distractions in particular old friends and marijuana. I am in the process of purification and tbh healing and facing my past hurts and traumas is hard. My mind sometimes fondly remembers the feeling of being high as well as just partying and drinking with old friends . I start to think about how it felt and how it would be nice to do that again. But I always try to take off the rose coloured glasses and see it for what it was, the anxiety, depression, low self esteem, self doubt and the passive way that I used to live life. I dont want that . I want to wake up everyday with new possibilities, knowing that I have an amazing future ahead, where I will be healed and whole because I went through this process. I ask God for strength when I get tempted and seek encouragement from my close community that God gave me for accountability. I have been 8 months sober and the temptation still comes but I just do my best to keep my eyes on Jesus and be honest with Him but also to accept the way out that He gives me when I am tempted ❤️
I love this Mel. It’s so funny because just this morning my mind began to wonder about a time I had no business thinking about! This was just the reminder that I needed!! What’s ahead is definitely far more greater than where we’ve been!! ❤️❤️❤️
So gooood!
I'm leaving Egypt.
I was recently leaded from Cincinnati to Virginia. Before I left Cincinnati I was battling myself because everyone and everything was there I had the perfect toxic unholy marriage the unhealthy relationship with my mother, siblings and friends who would want to leave a transgressional situation. But I was dying on the inside 2 years ago I was in such a bad place I remember in December of 2023 I was on my room and I heard the voice of our Lord say to me it's time. That night He intervene and pulled me back to his light so I picked up my bible something I had NEVER done before at the age of 44 😳 so I said okay God help me to understand what I'm reading because this was foreign to me God put people in my life to guide me to his words. I meant a woman name Sister Denise that lead me to my church but he didn't stop there I was lead to Pastor Priscilla Shire and Melody. Doing weekly bible studies on Mondays added to me breaking the many chains I had and didn't realize. Praise God Chayah
To sum it up I broke every chain ⛓️ now I break the chain of looking back to Egypt
When you said ‘Egypt had meat but it also had chains’😭l hollered so loud. It was so right on time because l’ve wrestled with something the Lord clearly showed me would not be good for me even thought it appeared like exactly what l was praying for. And that line reminded me l was romanticizing the Egypt instead of praising God for leading me out of it.
Wow What a message!!!! And an answer to one of my biggest questions!!!! My Egypt was my previous religion. It was a Pharisee type religion but the sincerity and zeal sometimes overshadowed the chains that are put on your personal faith. I enjoyed leadership and support in the religion but nothing replaces Holy Spirit and literally Gods perfect timing. Clarity my sister, from your brother.Thanks!
Hey Mel👋🏾 how are you? This is Donyea. I made a new Substack account. Our Father, God has delivered me from a stressful home and brought me into a place of peace. When memories or other ideas come up concerning love, I have to remember my First Love, Jesus. Also, who I am now in Christ. I am not allowed to obsess over or idolize anyone. Whew! Thank you for this question. It is a true healing process that is taking its time right now😩😭.
This literally brought tears to my eyes whew
Oh sis! Sending hugs ❤️ as we pack our bags and don’t look back (in Jesus name)
Clarification just in case some people misunderstand: while God didn’t make manna rain from Heaven on the Sabbath, He provided twice as much manna on Fridays so they can keep the Sabbath without having to collect it for food (since they had to collect enough for the day everyday and manna would usually spoil if they gather too much for the next day except on Fridays). God still provided for their daily needs, especially when it comes to keeping His commandments. (Reference: Exodus 16)
Yes completely correct, Thank you for clarifying that for anyone who may have been like 🧐🧐! I should’ve explained further or left a scriptural reference!